So far this day, I have had two pieces of toast, a coke, done my shopping, had a stress-attack….
For the last two years, I have been driving Mom’s car, because I can’t afford to get one of my own. A 2000 Nissan Pathfinder. I never minded, until now. Because NOW, the Pathfinder is apparently dying, and neither I or Mom have the money to actually fix it. I can’t run the heat, lights, defroster or radio, because when I have to stop at a light or sign, the car stalled out. This morning, as Mom and I were leaving PC, I pulled out of the parking spot…. and it died completely. Thank all the gods we were still in the parking lot! Most people were pretty tolerant, considering we were blocking the driving lane. A few stopped to check on us, and see if they could help. There were two or three I wanted to punch in the face, for nasty comments or nearly hitting the Pathfinder….and one almost hit Mom! Nick came up so we could get all the groceries out of the Pathfinder and into the Escape. We were waiting with Mom for the tow, but she ordered me to get the stuff home, and put away the cold stuff… let the dog out for a while, too. Now I am waiting for her to call me from Ray’s. (She just called… the tow is there, and they will be leaving the store shortly.)
I honestly don’t know what I am going to do in the next few months. I need to get a reliable car. Mom is having surgery in February. Nick needs surgery within the year. My BP is just barely under control… and I have an appointment Monday which I will now be walking to. (Thankfully, the doctor’s office is about an eighth of a mile from the house. I just need to pray the weather is decent) The stress levels are bad, and the only relief I have to stop me from shaking is smoking, which is not good for me, and I can’t actually afford.