I have had it. I am tired of arguing with both my husband and my mother over things that shouldn’t even be issues. I am tired of living paycheck to paycheck, and hoping I can feed my family meat more than once a week. I am tired of not having reliable transportation of my own. I am sick of the political farce this nation has become. And I am disgusted by how some so-called humans treat each other.
Tuesday, the Escape wouldn’t start, and I bounced the Pathfinder off a snow bank…which was better than hitting someone else’s SUV. I was shaking too badly after that to do anything but drive around the corner, park, get inside and curl up in a ball. Today is the second day this week I had to call out of work, because NEITHER Nick’s Escape nor Mom’s Pathfinder will start. ( Nick was waiting when I got home from work yesterday for me to take him to Napa to pick up a new battery for the Escape… only neither of us really knows how to change the damn thing out.) I have to get Mom to the store… she has no food left for Freckles. She was going to have me take her yesterday when I got home, only I didn’t give her the chance.
With the call outs, I am worried about my job. Because the Kidling will be 19 soon, we have to look for new health care coverage for her. I am still dealing with migraines; I don’t think my blood pressure is doing any better; I have not had the mammogram Dr, G wants me to have done, because I can’t find anyplace that will take my insurance that I trust…
I don’t want to do this anymore. Not any of it. And I know things are just going to get worse.